YESS I FUCKING GOT MY FUCKING XANGA BACK!!!!!!!!!

so yeah theres this big fucking gap in between my last entry and now so if youre DYING to know...go check it out on my other site

www.xanga.com/lastmomentxx

WOOO going to go celebrate

Song: Cursive  "Fairytales Tell Tales"

Mood: Just woke up

Iight so since my last entry....I started my first day at hot topic...it was fucking awesome....there was like 2 days full of b.s drama and i dont even remember so im not gonna even type it. Yesterday me and my mom went to NYC...we had a lot of fun and urg i dont even know cause i just woke up and im madd tired...

Song: Smile Empty Soul "Finding Myself"

Mood: Extremely Depressed

here let me show you the two main things that are on my mind....

i think that explains enough.....and then if you think thats enough...add how I feel about Nikki and the whole situation right now into the mix..all this shit thats going on in my life..and what do you get

Calvin = Depressed hxc x5348058345743985374592530453489537459

Song: Oasis "Wonderwall"

Mood: Bleh

ok so a lot of shit has happened and i dont even rememeber all of it....but like i went to nb the other day to surprise nikki and go to tonis party, and get my papers so i can start working at hot topic....and so yeah when nikki first got to tonis we didnt really talk...but then we did...and i was like the happiest man alive cause we cuddled n shit like all night and i never wanted it to end...then we went to sherris and got food the next day and then i had to go to amees...and that night was HORRIBLE...nikki was like this is the end of everything and i tried to hold back soo hard but she like looked me in the eyes and i just started BAWLING and i just wanted to die cause i felt like shit and i couldnt stop crying and it was just fucking horrible...that night was bad cause i couldnt stop thinking about shit and amee had to deal with me crying all night n shit and i finally fell asleep

yesterday there was this big drama deal with me getting my papers from nikki....i finally got them...along with my necklace and my shorts that she gave back to me :-/

so then i couldnt stop thinking about that and i slept over at amees moms house cause her mom was going somewhere and she was bringing me back in the morning

so yeah im home now in like...a mass confusion of my feelings and about everything thats going on

i think im gonna go lay down...so yeah ill ttyl

- Twisted Whispers -

What have I done?
How can she be gone?
I didn't do anything. I didn't do anything wrong.

Did I?

Who am i?

Why is she gone?

Who took her from me?

My Fucking Heart Is Gone.

This isn't right.
This isn't right.

Things weren't supposed to be like this.